LIFE...OR SOMETHING LIKE IT

So we all know I am a bit notorious for procrastinating and losing things. Today, we are going to talk about procrastination. I don't do it for the sake of self sabotage, or because I don't WANT to do something, but more out of fear of the unknown. But I realized there is no more time for that. No more time to wait for the right thing to happen to me, if you want something you have to make it happen. Now don't think that I am getting soft and mushy and positive on you or anything, I'm still going to be the same sarcastic, cynical girl you know and either love to hate or hate to love, because it is easy and I am good at it, but at the same time I might try DOING something while I’m at it. And of course if I had my choice, I would put this little mission on the backburner and keep it to myself to sit and collect dust for another year, but if I figure I put it out in the open, then not only do I have to hold myself to it, but I can't let all of you down either!! I know you are probably all getting tired of the same old woe is me rant so I'm doing you all a favour. I think the first step to this is to start with a list of things I am interested in doing and accomplishing. Now at this point in time a lot of these are just mere ideas, some more far fetched then others, but you gotta start with something right? Ok HERE WE GO!!


1. Go back to school (either to be a Medical Office Assistant or a Hospital Unit Clerk) - I have chosen this particular education, because I am very interested in the Medical Field and have aspirations to one day be an addictions counsellor or hold a position that assists troubled youth. Now because I am not sure this is exactly for me, I figure if I go to school for eight months to become an MOA or HUC I can get a position within an addictions center or facility so I can be exposed to this environment while working and making money.

2. Volunteer/Internship in Ghana, Africa - Now the only reason this one is not number one on my list is because of finances. My bank account is not in the best shape right now (to say the very least) so if I go to school first, and either try to take my practicum in Ghana, or head over there before my student loan payments have to kick in then I am set. I am in love with Africa and its people’s struggles and stories, and I think the only way I can truly be satisfied is if I experience the culture and beauty of it all first hand. Now I know someone reading this (cough..mom) is FREAKING out at this idea because we all know that some parts of Africa don't have a very good.....reputation...and I don't think she is all to comfortable with my obsession with Somalia, a place with no recognized central government authority, but not to fear. I am not going there. As much as I'd love to help those in danger, I don't think I would come out alive. So this is why I have opted for Ghana. It is considered to be one the safest and most welcoming countries in Africa, and it is the country of choice for most volunteers. Another exciting part of this chapter in my life is that my good friend April wants to travel to volunteer as well so hopefully she can join me on this journey.

3. Take an art class - I miss getting my hands dirty. I want to be covered in paint. (Well...only if I am wearing scrap clothes or it washes out.) But seriously tho. I miss being creative

4. Start skipping again - I think I have made it very clear throughout the years of this blog's existence that skipping was a huge part of my life. I miss it VERY much and will do whatever it takes to get back into it. It is one way I would like to fundraise for my trip to Ghana. For a long time I have always dreamed of organizing and hosting a benefit show with a skipping performance as the main act to fundraise for a good cause, but until now I had never known what the cause was going to be. So now that I have the motivation and the purpose, I really hope this is something that can happen. I just need the bodies...any skippers out there? There are quite a few teams here in Victoria now, so I'll have to try to track them down.

5. Biking to work more - Now that I have a stronger light and the proper reflective gear I can now venture out onto the Galloping Goose in the dark. The only thing holding me back from making the very short journey of 30 minutes to work via my bicycle is that once the trail is over it shoots you into one of the busiest and most confusing intersections in downtown Victoria. And just remember, this is all takes place for me during rush hour as well. Scares me to death.

6. Be a tourist in my own hometown - I still don't understand how the tickets can be only 9 dollars, but it covers free admission to some of Victoria's best tourist attractions Feb. 28th - March 4th. I think that one explains itself, I am a sucker for cheesy learning and this town is full to the brim with it.

7. Start selling my jewellery - I have SOOOO MANY supplies and beads that it’s almost taking over my bedroom. I have no idea why I don't just do it....It sort of has to do with the fact that I am a perfectionist when it comes to anything I create and nothing ever feels good enough. But I guess what is considered imperfect to me, is a treasure to someone else. Does anyone own or work in a shop or salon that would like to take some of my creations under their wing?

8. Pay off my credit card bill - This one would be higher on the list, but with my current budget (that sends me plummeting 200 dollars under every month) and my current position it is not possible. It also relies on and ties in with other things listed previous. So unless I win the lottery or some kind rich person decides to pay it off for me, it will remain as it is.

Now I have many more ideas and aspirations but I can't imagine anyone has read into it this far anyways. So I will post it in segments, along with my progress. Hopefully this works. See you all in a decade or two.

TIME

Time, where did you go?
Why did you leave me here alone?
Wait, don’t go so fast
I’m missing the moments as they pass
Now I’ve looked in the mirror and the worlds getting clearer
So wait for me this time
I’m down I’m down on my knees
I’m begging for all your sympathy
But you (I’m just an illusion) you don’t seem to care (I wish that I could)
You humble people everywhere (I don’t mean to hurt you)
Now I’ve looked in the mirror and the worlds getting clearer
I’ll take what you give me. Please know that I’m learning
So wait for me this time
I should’ve know better
I shouldn’t have wasted those days
And afternoons and mornings
I threw them all away
Now this is my time
I’m going to make this moment mine.(I shouldn’t have wasted those days)
I’ll take what you give me. Please know that I’m learning
I’ve looked in the mirror
My world’s getting clearer
So wait for me this time

- Chantal kreviazuk

Happy Valentines Day and cupcakes and rainbows and butterflies and shunshine and all that fluffy shit.

TOP TEN REASONS BEING SINGLE ON VALENTINES DAY IS THE BEST THING THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN TO YOU……ALMOST

9. No plans – No one to make em, no one to break em. If you wanna do something, what is there to stop you? You wouldn’t stand yourself up…or would you?

8. No need to dress up - My number once choice for Valentines Day attire is sweatpants. I don’t have anyone to impress. Just like how sweatpants are my choice for everyday attire. Comon they’re so sexy right?

7. No guilt - You can eat a whole box of candy yourself without feeling bad and having to explain why all the truffles from the pot of gold are missing.

6. Hassle free dining experience - Eating out for one is a no brainer. Just think no reservations, no waiting, no having to listen to never ending list of “Dinner specials for two”, no arguing over who will pick up the bill, no fuss. And the wait staff is going to be at your beck and call because for some reason they feel sorry that you are dining alone on valentines. They will never know you did so by choice.

5. No excuses - you get to stay home and watch chick flicks in your sweats eating chocolate and being lazy without having to come up with a reason for your actions because all your other friends are out with their significant others.

4. Can watch the movies YOU want to see - Without having to worry about your partner whining about it was your choice LAST TIME as they continue to support their argument of why Terminator/Love Actually is the most appropriate choice for the evening. Did I mention that you get to wear sweatpants and pig out on your own chocolate while you watch in the comfort of your own home?

3. No fake reactions – You Don’t have to spend hours practicing the “aww honey I love it…you shouldn’t have” reaction when your significant other shows up with a box of turtle chocolates (did I mention you were allergic to nuts?) and the last remaining bouquet of overpriced, wilted and demolished supermarket roses. Singles like myself do not need to worry. I can go out and buy myself whatever I want and I know I will love it!

2. No disappointment - With Valentine’s day comes a plethora of presents that are insincere and artificial. People feel forced to get something for their significant others because it is considered social tradition to do so instead of from the heart. People get disappointed on valentines because for most it is NOT just the thought that counts. (Especially women, cuz really they are the only ones that care this holiday even existed…if it was up to the guys feb.14th would be national sit on the couch and watch sports day)

AND THE #1 REASON BEING SINGLE ON V-DAY IS AWESOME:

1. You're not about to get dumped. Think about it.

At this point if you managed to make it through you may be wondering…well where is reason number 10? Why on earth would you start at top ten list with the number nine. Are you a complete idiot? Do you know how to count? Do you have any sense at all? And the answers to those common questions are as follows. It has yet to be created. Because I can. No. Yes. And, Sometimes. You see, I am leaving reason number ten up to you. All those single people up there who wish to contribute to my list, this is your opportunity. Leave me a comment, I’ll pick the one I like most and repost it with the complete list as soon as I see fit. So common, contribute already. Coupled folk need not apply. Your suggestions would probably be crappy. Unless you are Minn, your suggestions are always welcome here.

Valentine's Day is like herpes: just when you think its gone for good, it rears its ugly head once more.

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magic

WOW.


What an amazing concert that was. Raine Maida, you are an absolute genious. Has anyone heard his "yellow brick road"? I'ts not on his EP and it is imperative to my well being that I track this song down. It is fantastic.

Hiding in the shadows under the hood of her sweater, Chantal backed up Raine during his opening acts on her piano. Although her prescence on stage was unknown to others, I could tell the moment she touched those keys that it was the one and only Chantal Kreviazuk. They were both amazing. I must say that Chantal and Raine both are a thousand times better live then they are recorded. Which is a HUGE deal (because I love them both recorded as well.) Chantals voice just radiated throughout the entire 900 seat theatre. Although we were seated in what some refer to as the "nose bleed" section accidentally, it didn't even matter. Her music and voice would reach all the way to the ends of the earth if there was no sound barrier above us (aka..the roof.) Anyways to sum it up, it was a fantastic evening with top notch company (being my mommy, chantal and raine) and will be embedded in my memory forever.

Peace and Love,
Lisa

CHANTAL KREVIAZUK CONCERT TONIGHT!!

I'm alone is this life, and these old jeans are too tight
and now I can't pick my feet off the floor
I try to laugh but i cry
my dignity is undignifided, guess I'm really on my own
love is like a little boy, no I'm not paranoid
but I'm on to you, yeah yeah
well I'm not seventeen and I don't want to be
so why am I hiding

Is it too late to call you on the phone
too late to tell you I'm alone
I want to wake up from another lonely night
too late to wonder where you are
too late to hold you in my arms
cause if you're looking for wonderful
I'm wonderful

I'm a very simple girl
and I don't fit into this world, the city lights leave me in a daze
and even though we've never met, you know what I'm trying to forget
somethings you can't change

Is it too late to call you on the phone
too late to tell you I'm alone
I want to wake up from another lonely night
too late to wonder where you are
too late to hold you in my arms
cause if you're looking for wonderful
I'm wonderful

I'm underneath

Is it too late to call you on the phone
too late to tell you I'm alone
I want to wake up from another lonely night
too late to wonder where you are
too late to hold you in my arms
cause if you're looking for wonderful

I'm wonderful

- chantal kreviazuk

SOOOOO EXCITED!!



CONTEST

OK,

So if any of you can tell me who this lovely lady is and what character she is so brilliantly immitating you win a prize.

*disclaimer, contest only open to non family member residents. Minn you are family, sorry.

me on valentines day


for the people

Dear mean people of the planet,
I am so sorry you waste so much time and energy to be rude. It is with my DEEPEST sympathy that I write this letter. Unfortunately as you may or may not already know, you actually happen to be the brunt of every joke. So I guess this is a letter of thanks and praise just as much as it is a letter of sympathy. My heart goes out to you though. It must be terribly strenuous to be so utterly pessimistic and unruly all of the time. How on earth do you ever come up with so much pathetic material? Do you find that you often have to re-use some of your best, or is it all totally original? The dedication and persistence it takes to be you is truly mind boggling. Keep up the good work.

Yours truley,
the nicest person on the planet

Welcome to exsistance

When did life become so complex and so simple all at once? Am I really here? Is this really happening? Am I really sitting at my computer struggling to find the words to even write something so meaningless, so pointless? Am I even awake? Why is it when I hear about people that I knew growing up I feel like we are from different worlds? WHO ARE YOU? Are you the same person? When did you all become so famous? Am I the same person? When did you start writing music? When did I stop? Is this really the planet I started out on with such hope and promise? When did it all fade away? Where is my ambition my creativity my inspriation my drive my passions my interests my talents?MY CONFIDENCE??? Why can't I finish anything I have started? Why can't I start anything? Where are my friends?




WHERE ARE MY WORDS?????????

hahaha


whatever.


MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION IS 1280 X 1024

Happy New years

so what im like 27 days late. better late then never

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Flying Home

Its hard to let you go
You've always let me in
And helped with all the endings
And you know where to begin
I need you here for me
Cause you always know my heart
I cant believe we'd change
Or have to be apart

But if you've seen the love that's in his eyes
Then everything is good
And if you know the way he felt inside
He's flying where he should
I never believed we'd ever live to see
An angel being born and flying home

Its good to know your laugh
And you'll always hold my hand
And watch from up in heaven
And always understand
We'll take you down the road
And in everything we do
We'll know how much you love us
A soul that's kind and true.

But if you've seen the love that's in his eyes
Then everything is good
And if you know the way he felt inside
He's flying where he should
I never believed we'd ever live to see
An angel being born and flying home

R.I.P Don Patterson ( May 28, 1952 - January 4, 2007 )

If you wish to make a donation in memory of Don you may do so to Conservation National at www.conservation.org or a charity of your choice.

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Love letters

Dear Lord of the tards,

youre gunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnna get it.....bizitch.

mwuhahahaha. good will always triumph over evil, remember that jackass (es) . :)
you're welcome.

Best wishes.


love, Lisa xoxo

p.s. why you got your panties up in a bunch?

Happy Holidays

So I spent my christmas with the family up island and had a fantastic time. There is nothing that i enjoy more then forcing my family to play board games (this is the one time of they year they know they can't say no) and watching home movies such as : the epic puppet show featuring Lisa 7 years, steven not old enough to understand. I only had one day off (christmas day) but it was a golrious day off full of chocolate for breakfast (pancakes to) and good solid quality family time. I was spoiled yet again and got a new razor v3t cell phone and an adapter for my car deck to power my ipod through my stereo system. Was a bit of an inconvienience when my car decided to break down on christmas day, but dad the super mechanic came to the rescue and 500 dollars later, she runs like a beaut. (and she should for that much money.) gak. So now it is back at the grind for me at work, we are hella busy, and my next day off will be the next holiday Jan first. I don't have any plans for new years eve other then reading watching movies and painting, but if anyone has any plans i would like to consider them for myself...I don't really feel like going out and paying 25$ + for cover to a place i don't really normally enjoy that doesn't end up being any different then a regular night out with the exception of longer lineups and more expensive drinks. But I am willing to take any offer/suggestions you might have into consideration.

Anyways, gotta get ready for another day in movie hell. Wish me luck.

celebration


so my blog has hit the 1000 mark. celebration commence. wohoo to me.(and no, 999 of those hits are not from ME checking MY website to up the count. I made it so my views do not effect the counter...otherwise it would probaly be at lik 10,000 by now....lol)

p.s. i am awesome.

p.p.s. i have really white teeth. im so proud

Narcissus

Dear momma's boy,
I know you've had your butt licked by your mother
I know you've enjoyed all that attention from her
And every woman graced with your presence after

Dear narcissus boy,
I know you've never really apologized for anything
I know you've never really taken responsibility
I know you've never really listened to a woman

Dear me-show boy,
I know you're not really into conflict resolution
Or seeing both sides of every equation
Or having an uninterrupted conversation

And any talk of healthiness
And any talk of connectedness
And any talk of resolving this
Leaves you running for the door

(why why do I try to love you, try to love you when you really don't want me to)

Dear egotist boy,
You've never really had to suffer any consequence
You've never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes
You'd never understand anyone showing resistance

Dear popular boy,
I know you're used to getting everything so easily
A stranger to the concept of reciprocity
People honor boys like you in this society

And any talk of selflessness
And any talk of working at this
And any talk of being of service
Leaves you running for the door

(why why do I try to help you, try to help you when you really don't want me to)

You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to ignoring all the rest of us
You go back to the center of your universe

Dear self centered boy,
I don't know why I still feel affected by you
I've never lasted very long with someone like you
I never did although I have to admit I wanted to

Dear magnetic boy,
You've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit
You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it
I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on it

And any talk of willingness
And any talk of both feet in
And any talk of commitment
Leaves you running for the door

(why why do I try to change you try to, try to change you when you really don't want me to)

You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to being so oblivious
You go back to the center of the universe

- alanis morissette

Talking to Americans Part II

So the other day I had a rather amusing run-in with a family of our friendly american neighbours. While the gentleman was searching his pockets for some canadian funds, he proceeded to ask "So is the canadian dollar equivalent to the british pound??" GOD IF THAT WERE TRUE ID BE A MILLIONARE! what a fantastic exchange rate that would be!!!! I was a bit speechless at the time, as I was still waiting for him to break out in laughter and say an extremely awkward but anticipated "JUST KIDDING!" when to my suprise...he wasn't joking at all. After i spent a good five minutes explaing how our dollar face value was exactly the same as theirs minus a mere 8 percent, we got into the subject of exchange rates. "So what does that mean exactly.." he proceeded. "So what is your dollar worth in american, like 20 cents? HA. Do you not know how to calculate simple math? (well i dont either, but I can still tell you that an 80 cent difference is far from correct) Don't you wish it was. Where do you people come up with this material? It is absolutely the funniest shit I have ever heard. And you say it with such a straight face! you have me so fooled. You have seriously GOT to be kidding...right???....

After that lovely exchange of words, Mr.Intelligence's daughter approaches me and I am once again speechless. ( twice in one day is pretty tough, well done.) I take a double look at the "Bling" hanging around her neck, and what I see is absolutely appauling. She has a gargantuan charm covered in jewels and crystals in the form of a very detailed HAND GUN! Call me old fashioned, but I really find that repulsive and extremely un-appropriate. If my daughter were to ever wear something so tasteless and un-fashion saavy I would rip that thing right off her neck, and send her straight to boot camp. (well, actually Ill just go ahead and admit right now that I would probably undo it properly, I mean who wants to ruin a perfectly good chain...minus the ghastly charm of course?)

So completely off topic, a lot has gone down lately, both for the good and bad. I will unveil these updates in the very new future...If i want.
god's gonna cut you down
im so tired of being lonely .

History Brief

Now most of you know me well enough to know parts of my past. But for those of you that don't, here is a little look back in time.
Growing up I was on a skipping team for a solid 11 years of my life. I loved every single part of that sport. (yes it IS a sport.) And before you start making assumptions no we did not just bounce around chanting "had a little sportscar in 1978 took it around the cooooooorner and slammed on the breaks. policeman stopped me and put me in jail, all i had was ginger ale, how many bottles did i drink..1...2...3.." ok wait a minute. Just because I know that rhyme does not mean anything...hmm..Im really not supporting my argument to well. But I don't care about that, because once you watch these videos I will have made a believer out of you.

First of all, let me give you a quick breakdown on how a skipping competition goes down:
They are usually 2 days long. First day is generally speed and endurance. In this catagory there is both single and team events. An example of an event is single rope 30 second speed. My best time if i remember correctly was 168 revolutions in 30 seconds. If you don't understand how fast that is, i suggest you try running in one spot for 30 seconds counting only one leg. You may be lucky to break 70. You then take that number and times it by two. (obviously so you can count for both feet.) The same rules apply to team events, except for it is done in double dutch and one person is skipping working their ass off and two people are turning the ropes at lightning speed. An example of another event is called "power" and it is where you do as many double or triple unders as you can until you mess up.

Second day is generally the freestyle day. This is where it really gets creative. As a single skipper your routines are usually close to a minute long, and you must pack as MANY of the hardest tricks you can into this tiny window of opportunity. Points are knocked off for mess ups and added for difficulty, use of space, creativity, time to music, and certain other technicalities (much like figure skating. including the politics.) Same rules apply to team, you are just in the double dutch format with either one single skipper or two skippers in the middle.

Now that you have been briefed i think you are almost ready.

I attended numerous competitions throughout my time on the Rhythm Ropers and closer to the end of my career, placed in the top 3 at provinicial and national levels for the greater part of my performances. (as a single and as part of a team.) It is something that I am proud of and I can brag about it if i want. I gotta lot of blue kickin around in the ribbons and metal bin i have stashed away. I kicked some serious ass. So for all you non believers out there, Ima guna make a believer out of yous. If more people skipped with the intensity and drive that these next videos do, maybe skipping would finally be recognized as a real sport. (even though it already is a real sport, I made that very clear at the beginning. I' just saying maybe now people will ACKNOWLEDGE that.) The only vids I could find on youtube so far are all double dutch freestyle, but its a good start. Anyways, i guess you can watch the videos now. I really miss skipping, can you tell?

Rope skipping
History Brief cont...

Life Update

So. Lot of new things happening lately. Good things. They are as follows:

- got my bike here finally. Now I can bike to work and save buttloads of money.

- Have just signed up to become a volunteer at "NEED" a crisis line here in victoria. My traning will commence sept.29th.

- Have lost 10 lbs. Don't look any different but i guess its 10 lbs of something from somewhere right?

- Another peice of good news goes here but its subject cannot yet be disclosed.

- Victoria idol starts on sept.29th. Well this is when my audition cd needs to be in. I have to have 2 pre-recorded songs and my friend cody is going to help me out. Still don't know if i am going to endure this at a recording studio or try to create a makeshift one at my house. Any suggestions?This may quite possibly be the most terrifying experience I have ever done as of yet. I still can't believe im doing this. But i will keep you updated with the progress, if any.

That's basically it for the brief news update. It's my day off today but I have just been notified there is a possibility I will be called in so i better go to the gym now or i wont get to go.

What if it all means something?

If I could do anything for you,
Believe me I would
Do you feel the same? Feel the same as me?
If I could be anyone for you,
Believe me I would
I'm not ashamed not ashamed to be.
Its hard for me to know,
Sometimes I feel like letting go
But what if it all means something?

If I could go anywhere for you,
Believe me I would
I'd run away, I'd ran away, I'd leave.
If I could fix everything for you,
Believe me I would
Do you feel the same, feel the same as me?
Its hard for me to know, well maybe I should just let go.
But what if it all means something?

~ Chantal Kreviazuk

Overdue

Hi...

So I have been doing something for the last month and am now ready to disclose what it is. It has taken me a while because I wanted to make sure I was going to be 100 % into it and a bit successful before i disclosed this information to the world only to let myself down in public.

I am on a fitness and meal plan through my gym. This is what my week looks like:

Mon - Weights & Core class
Tues - Cardio
Wed - Weights
Thursday - Cardio
Friday - Weights
Sat - Cardio
Sun - Weights

I know it looks boring but i do in fact do different things on the days marked "cardio" and still do cardio on the days marked weights. So really that is not even a remotely good representation of my week at all.

On another note, the meal plan is fantastic. I have only been on the nutrition plan for 11 days now but It is completely personalized to my choices. (they had me pick things out of a huge list and then It got sent away to make MY book) .It is based on the "zone" theory and concentrates on keeping your blood sugar levels the same throughout the day (among a plethora of other things.) It it is based on a 2 and 3 point system. A 3 point meal is made up of 3 Protien points, 3 Carbs, and 3 fats. Your snacks are instead 2, 2, and 2. (you get it. its not complicated math....well maybe for me.) Anyways, it focuses on created a completely balanced diet so you are not depriving your body of things it still needs (like carbohydrates...)and it is designed to help create muscle mass and reduce weight mass.

It is a huge book and I have learnt so much already. My days are planned out for me but it is easy to replace food with other things that have the same value, there is even a conversion chart to help me :) And best of all, my grocery lists are already made so I don't even have to think about it when i go shopping. Only downside is I am spending twice as much money on groceries as I was before (there is actually a new list every week) but I haven't eaten out at all so I guess it weighs out.

Now, some of you may be wondering "well has she lost any weight?" And my response is this. For some strange and unknown reason I am not yet willing to divuldge my original weight amount before this little project. It is completely bizarre since I just recently uncovered my inability to do fractions on a very large and PUBLIC scale which is probably far more embarassing then my weigt will ever be, but I just at this time and no comfortable doing so. But I will tell you this:

- I have gained 6 lbs of muscles mass
- I have lost 7 lbs of fat mass
- And have reduced my Fat % down 4 percent.

And on a whole I have lost 5 lbs.

Right now I don't feel like I look any different, but I am way happier and I have definately noticed a change in my energy level and also have improved mental acuity. (although my co-workers may beg to differ based on how many times I have forgotten my day planner at work i nthe last week...).

So that's that. Its a go. If anyone has any suggestions or would like more information on my nutrition and welness plan just ask. I am not afraid of questions and as you probably already know I would tell yo anything..yeah other then that weight thing.

But now its time for some bike action. Off to the gym I go.