Welcome to exsistance

When did life become so complex and so simple all at once? Am I really here? Is this really happening? Am I really sitting at my computer struggling to find the words to even write something so meaningless, so pointless? Am I even awake? Why is it when I hear about people that I knew growing up I feel like we are from different worlds? WHO ARE YOU? Are you the same person? When did you all become so famous? Am I the same person? When did you start writing music? When did I stop? Is this really the planet I started out on with such hope and promise? When did it all fade away? Where is my ambition my creativity my inspriation my drive my passions my interests my talents?MY CONFIDENCE??? Why can't I finish anything I have started? Why can't I start anything? Where are my friends?